Sometimes you just need to start typing and see what happens next. I think that’s what I’m going to do today since my mind seems to be thinking about a million different things at the same time. If there was a better way to organize the inside of my head I would be more than happy to do it, but that’s just not the case. Instead I’m going to ramble a bit and see what comes out. Yeah, that seems like the best way to do things at this point.
First off, I’m just a couple of days back from my trip to Congo, which is a little hard to handle. Not only am I physically tired from the two week trip and the 30+ hour travel home, but the juxtaposition of that world vs. the reality of San Francisco is shocking to the system. We have so much and they have so little. We’re always looking for more and they’re just trying to survive. We have order and infrastructure and they have complete chaos. We’re always trying to squeeze our faith into our lives and their faith in Jesus Christ is off the charts.
Being one place and then hopping into a few jets and being in the other can really make your head spin with questions, which is what I’m feeling right now. I want to make the most of my experience in Congo, but at this point it’s hard to explain what I’m feeling in a way that makes sense to someone who wasn’t there with me. I guess I just need to keep processing and do my best not to forget the people I met and the things that I saw.
Stephanie and I went to Congo together last year and it’s something that neither of us will ever forget, but this year I headed there solo. This makes it harder to talk through, but I’m doing my best to share the experience with her and I’m hoping that the videos and photos that we have will help me tell a better story to her. I know it’s never easy being the one who stays home while the other is out on an adventure of a lifetime, but that’s how it happened this time around and I need to make sure that she still feels like she’s a part of the trip. It’s not going to be easy, but that’s my goal.
I love Stephanie more than anything and it’s been hard to be away from her for so long (SXSW for a week, then Congo for two weeks and tomorrow she leaves for her spring break for a week). We haven’t had a ton of time to talk through what’s been going on in our lives, but tonight we’re having date night which I hope will get us on the same page. We’re not the best at communicating with one another, but we’re getting better and we both know it’s important to let each other know how we’re feeling, whether it’s good or bad.
Heading back to work the day after getting back to the US might not have been the best idea, but it was good to see the isocket crew again. It’s only been two weeks since I left but in the world of a startup lots of things can go on during that seemingly short amount of time. My workday consisted of attempting to explain what my trip was like in the span of a short conversation and catching up on my emails.
From what I could tell things have been going well while I’ve been gone and isocket continues to grow in ways that I could have never imagined back when I was hired as the first employee a couple of years ago. It’s exciting and fun to be part of a team that’s trying to do something that’s never been done before and I feel blessed to have the opportunity to help make it happen. It’s a roller coaster, but I guess that’s what I signed up for.
Other than that it’s been great to have warm showers again and to snuggle up with Frank (our Pug). It’ll be nice to have this weekend to get things cleaned up and washed and to have some time to get more of thoughts together. Oh, and the Final Four is this weekend, too which is pretty awesome since I’ve missed all of the March Madness up until this point.
But, until then it’s back to work and I need to get off on the next train station so we’ll catch up later. Here’s to an awesome rest of your Friday and have a fabulous weekend (I know I will).